It's All Part of His Plan

"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
Jeremiah 29:11

Lately I've had a problem with accepting that everything happens for a reason. I have to keep reminding myself that God has a plan for me and that where I am right now is exactly where he wants me to be. So you all know about that guy I dated in high school, the one that his parents made us break up due to age. Well, being home really messes with me because I have to be around everything again. I can't go anywhere without thinking "oh me and Brandon used to hang out here." Or "Wow that's where Brandon and I had our first actual date." It's hard to not think of someone that I spent two years with. I loved him with all of my heart and it kills me to watch him be with another girl. I want him to be happy though, so it's not like there's anything I can do. If he's happy, I'm happy for the both of them. Point is it's really hard being home from college around him and his family again. I keep asking God why he took someone who made me so happy away from me and if it was the right thing to do then why does it hurt so bad? Every time I think about the whole situation I just think about Jeremiah 29:11. God has a plan for me, for all of us. He doesn't want to hurt us, he wants to give us hope and a future and we have to trust him with that. It's easy to want to take control of your life and do things YOUR way, but is that God's plan for you? God will take something away from you, only because he has something better to give you. Have you ever just sat there and thought about the things that he's taken from you that left you confused and hurt but now you see that if he didn't take it from you, you wouldn't have something better. That's how he works. We just have to learn to let go and let God. God has our lives all figured out, he wrote our story and the beauty of our God is he won't put us through anything that we can't handle. Every heartache and painful moment is a set up for a lesson that we have to learn. A lesson that once learned will leave us with more wisdom. He doesn't hurt us and walk away, he leaves us with the tools and strength to pick ourselves back up and to move forward. Our tool is God himself. We can't expect to make it through anything without him, he has our back and our best interest at heart. We just have to trust him and his plan. As for me, I'm learning to let go. I've accepted that God took Brandon from me for a very important reason that I just can't see yet. He has something else in store for me and I'm ready to find out what that is. I wish Brandon and his new girlfriend the absolute best luck at having love and happiness. Now it's my turn to find out where I'm meant to be in life right now. 

Whether it's an ex boyfriend/girlfriend, a lost scholarship, a death in the family, a rejection letter to college, a sports injury, or your about to face a big life change, it's all part of a plan. Our stories all have the happiest ending that we can think of! All of this pain and suffering we are going through isn't for nothing! We have so much to gain through our struggles. There's so much that God wants to teach us. Our job is to let go and let God because he does have a plan! Trust him with everything because he shouldn't have to earn your trust. He already sent his son to die for us, he already won our battle. That's all you're doing when you fight his plan, when you're holding on to everything you want and you're trying to take full control of your life, you're fighting a fight that's already been won! Surrender yourself to him. Give him your life and stop fighting what's happening in your life. Everything happens for a reason, let it happen. At the end of the day you will be so thankful for what has happened in your life. We are all going through this together guys! You don't even have to go through the heartache alone, you have people to talk to. And if you don't, you definitely have me. So please, PLEASE, stop fighting and join me in letting go. We have a bright future ahead of us. Let's start moving forward. Together. 

XOXO, 
Kirby Madyson